“A Heart at Leisure From Itself”

We all need encouragement some times. We all occasionally feel down in the dumps, or inadequate, even ugly. We have an enemy of our souls who specializes in tripping us up and bringing us down.

The KJV rendering of Proverbs 12:25 says, “Heaviness in the heart of man maketh it stoop: but a good word maketh it glad.” We know the blessing of that “good word” that meets us just at the right time in our moment of need. I am thankful for the encouragers among us who, sensitive to the Holy Spirit’s leading, specialize in thoughtful observation and uplifting words.

However, I have seen women Bible teachers express concern over the plethora of material for Christian women which is based on emotion and self-esteem: “You are beautiful.” “You are wonderful.” “You are enough.” There are a handful of blogs I only read occasionally because every single post seems to espouse these messages.

I share that concern, for a few reasons. As I said, we all need a boost every now and then. But this kind of encouragement focuses on self, and the sheer volume of these messages makes me wonder whether we are altogether too preoccupied with self. And if Christian leaders and teachers are constantly feeding us esteem-building maxims, we’re lacking the teaching we most need: that which turns our attention to God and His truth. And, just occasionally, these kinds of message are wrong: for instance, as we discussed last week, we are not enough in ourselves.

Please understand: I am not trying to heap guilt on top of other negative feelings. I’m just turning our attention to a better focus and message. When we’re bombarded by self-defeating thoughts, we need to take them captive and apply God’s truth to them.

I am ugly. “I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well.” Psalm 139:14, ESV.Β  “And your renown went forth among the nations because of your beauty, for it was perfect through the splendor that I had bestowed on you, declares the Lord GOD.” Ezekiel 16:14

I am worthless. “Knowing that you were ransomed from the futile ways inherited from your forefathers, not with perishable things such as silver or gold, but with the precious blood of Christ, like that of a lamb without blemish or spot.” 1 Peter 1:18-19

I am inadequate. “Not that we are sufficient in ourselves to claim anything as coming from us, but our sufficiency is from God. 2 Corinthians 3:5

I am not enough. “Abide in me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit by itself, unless it abides in the vine, neither can you, unless you abide in me. I am the vine; you are the branches. Whoever abides in me and I in him, he it is that bears much fruit, for apart from me you can do nothing.” John 15:4-5

I am not lovable. God shows his love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.” Romans 5:8

Personally, a lot of my self-esteem issues were solved once I truly got hold of the KJV translations of Ephesians 1:6: “He hath made us accepted in the beloved.

Some years ago at a leaders meeting for a church ladies’ group, the pastor’s wife was encouraging us to speak up when we each did our various parts during the meeting. She mentioned almost offhandedly that “Self-consciousness is consciousness of self, and we are supposed to forget self.” That was another concept that helped me turn from my preoccupations with self (which increased anxiety about messing up in some way) to forgetting self in doing what God wanted me to do in the moment, trusting Him for the grace and ability.

Last week I caught a couple of Elisabeth Elliot’s radio broadcasts, replayed now on BBN Radio, in which she was talking about these very ideas. When I stopped the car, I jotted down some notes from her broadcast before I got out to run my errands. I was so hoping I could find a transcript of the program online, but I have had no luck so far.Β  In searching, however, I did find the September/October 1999 copy of her newsletter in which she discussed related issues. She quotes C. S. Lewis as saying:

The very first step is to try to forget about the self altogether. Your real, new
self (which is Christ’s and also yours, and yours just because it is His) will not come as long as you are looking for it. It will come when you are looking for Him…The principle runs through all life from top to bottom. Give up your self, and you will find your real self. Lose your life and you will save it.
Submit to death, death of your ambitions and favourite wishes every day and death of your whole body in the end: submit with every fibre of your being, and you will find eternal life. Keep back nothing. Nothing that you have not given away will ever be really yours. Nothing in you that has not died will ever be raised from the dead. Look for yourself, and you will find in the long run only hatred, loneliness, despair, rage, ruin, and decay. But look for Christ and you will find Him, and with Him everything else thrown in. (She quotes from Beyond Personality, but a similar quote is in Mere Christianity as well).

She also includes a few stanzas of this poem/prayer by Anna Laetitia Waring. Two lines which most stood out to me are the author’s request for “a heart at leisure from itself, To soothe and sympathise” and “And a life of self-renouncing love Is a life of liberty.”

I also have in my files a quote from one of Elisbaeth’s old email devotionals that were sent out by Back to the Bible years ago. This one is also from her book Keep a Quiet Heart:

“His purpose in dying for all was that men, while still in life, should cease to live for themselves and should live for him who for their sakes died and was raised to life. With us therefore worldly standards have ceased to count in our estimate of any man…. When anyone is united to Christ, there is a new world (or a new act of creation); the old order has gone, and a new order has already begun” (2 Corinthians 5:15-17, NEB).

That new order is a far cry from the notion of self-acceptance which has taken hold of the minds of many Christians. Any message which makes the Cross redundant is anti-Christian. The original sin, pride, is behind my “poor self-image,” for I felt that I deserved better than I got, which is exactly what Eve felt! So it was pride, not poor self-image, that had to go. If I’m so beautiful and lovable, what was Jesus doing up there, nailed to the cross and crowned with thorns? Why all that hideous suffering for the pure Son of God? Here’s why: There was no other way to deliver us from the hell of our own proud self-loving selves, no other way out of the bondage of self-pity and self-congratulation. How shall we take our stand beneath the cross of Jesus and continue to love the selves that put Him there? How can we survey the wondrous cross and at the same time feed our pride? No. It won’t work. Jesus put it simply: If you want to be My disciple, you must leave self behind, take up the cross, and follow Me.

I also remember Elisbaeth commenting on the radio program that what we sometimes think of as self-hate is actually self-love, because so much of our thought and time is still caught up with self.

Please understand, again, all this talk about forgetting self and dying to self doesn’t mean we neglect self-care. Our bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, and we take care of them in thankfulness to Him and for His usefulness. He wants us to glorify Him in our body and spirit. Sometimes we need help with twisted or negative self-talk or self-concepts due to abuse, or a lifetime of put-downs, or other reasons. But the best way to heal from these things is to see what God’s Word says about how He made us and how much He loves us and how He longs to work in and through us. As Robert Murray McCheyne said, “For every look at self, take ten looks at Christ.”

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25 thoughts on ““A Heart at Leisure From Itself”

  1. Thank you Barbara for this post. I often wonder about some of the teachings that are out there and how they line up with the scriptures. We live in a world where self is so important, yet my happiest moments have been when I’m focused on someone else that God has put in my path. Thank you again for sharing.

  2. Thank you, Barbara, for another well thought out post. I loved it all! Far too many times we are directed to focus on self rather than on Christ. He is the One who gives us reason for living and our victories from self-induced thinking! There is POWER in God’s Word and He has been glorified here. That is one thing that I love about coming here to your blog. You and I both look to Elisabeth Elliot as one of our heroes…I’ve considered that a lot at different times and I believe it is because of her emphasis on the Word of God. She knew where the power is!

    • Thanks so much, Dianna. I love that about Elisabeth – her focus on the Word of God, and the fact that she tells it like it is. She’s not unkind, but she doesn’t pull any punches when ti comes to our need to evaluate ourselves in the light of God’s Word.

  3. If we keep our focus on Jesus & His sacrificial love for us….Then all things fall into place including esteem, value, worth & confidence for they become His not ours…

    You’re most welcome to drop by for a cup of inspiration,
    Jennifer

  4. Thank you for this beautiful post. I just finished one of Elisabeth Elliot’s early books: “These Strange Ashes,” when her foundation of faith and dying to self was being formed. Her words always bring me to tears, because the conviction to look up to God is so sweet.

  5. I simply love your work!! Your blogs are amazing and thank you for sharing!!! I’m new at blogging and I just started about a week ago and trying to be as great as you’re!! God bless you!

  6. I like this a lot. I am seeing more and more “me-focused” stuff — I think social media has encouraged it. I get so tired of all the “I’m inadequate” stuff I see on SM which the poster supposedly means as a way of crying for help (I guess), but it does come across after a while as just too much focus on the self. I guess it’s natural that I’d rebel against this too, as I’ve always been someone who shuns the spotlight. As a child, I hid my face on my plate when “Happy Birthday” was sung to me. My mom made a movie of this πŸ™‚ It’s funny that I did that, because even now, decades later, my reactions when attention is called to me are largely the same.

  7. Ouch. Serious food for thought. I try very hard to back up my thinking with Biblical principles and verses but the fact is sometimes it’s just too doggone easy to get caught up in emotions/feelings. I’m at a place like that in my life right at this moment and I just keep trying to go back to God’s truths from His word, and to return the focus to HIM and what HE says and who I am IN HIM and THROUGH HIM. Good, good words here.

  8. Well thought out, Barbara! I think another element we need to consider is that babies need milk (assurances that they are loved, beautiful, and worthwhile), but that we need to move on to a diet of more substantial things–knowing our worth is in Jesus alone. We all grow at different rates. Thank you for the reminder to move on to meatier things!

    • Excellent point, Anita. In our youth – both physically and spiritually – we need those assurances a little more. We also might in our more vulnerable moments. Thankfully God is patient as we learn to assure ourselves from His Word.

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